Tuesday, February 21, 2012


As many of you may or may not know, my relationship with my sister is everything to me. We have an on going conversation that lasts through out the entire day, turns into texting in the evening and then  picks up where it left of by that first morning phone call.

We clean our houses together, watch our favorite shows together, and if we are lucky, once in a while we take a quiet drive without the kids together.....all over the phone of course.
Oh yeah i forgot to mention, we also have this habit of getting knocked up together.

.......my sister feels like an extension of myself. Twin souls, five years apart.....me the youngest, of course.

And lately something wonderful has been happening in our home. Two more twin souls are finding each other.
Sliding from room to room on quilts and playing under make shift tents........

Last night while cooking dinner i turned around to find this giggling blob had made it's way into the kitchen.

Even though i didn't want to intrude on their moment, i could not resist the urge to take a peak. My mommy heart was happy, and i wanted to see the magic of their little world.

And just like that baby sister jumped into sissy's arms and destroyed the tent...again.

Sweet Ava.....I love this face. This is the face of a big sister....a real sister.

And this one...a real baby sister.....

I try to remember sometimes how i felt in the beginning. How i thought i had failed at giving Ava a sister, how they would never have what my sister and i have........
Now i realize, that it is not for me to decide.It is for Paloma and Ava to decide. I realize now that sisters come in many different shapes and sizes. That Paloma and Ava will have something unique and special to them, something that as their mom, i will never truly be able to understand. A sisterhood is a force to be reckoned with......and this sisterhood is no different.

trust me.....i know twin souls when i see'em.....

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Old friends and new beginnings

Ok Paloma, when I said, "May the new year be as lived as December," I did not mean the hospital part. I did not want to see this guy ever again..........sorry Mr. Turtle.

But here we are. And between the two hospitals, (Hello Joy!) We have been in since Wendsday. Double Pnemonia and RSV. But i don't want to write about it..........We are fighting it, and we are winning.

That was a post started in the hospital in early January..... After a week in the hospital we kicked RSV's butt big time. It was messy, it was scary, but you know what? We knew what "IT" was and we knew the protocol. And just to really stick it to RSV my girl came home clapping. Nine months old to the day and clapping like a pro.

Over the past month life has been good. Paloma is developing at lightning speed and i took Ava out of preschool so that i could be with her more. Paloma has made me become the mom that i always thought that i was...if that makes sense? And she has given me the confidence to make decisions for my family that are in our best interest, like home schooling.......so that is exactly what we will be doing. I am a greedy selfish mommy and i want all the juicy Ava time and baby love i can get my hands on. I want to be there when Ava's light bulbs go off, i want to embark on the same journey that my mom took with me, i want......to be with Ava.